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maybe i'm just a terrible person?

saccharinedreams

I'm being assessed for autism in 9 days and I'm beginning to second-guess myself. maybe all of my problems my whole life are just because I'm a *** person? Perhaps I'm just looking for a scapegoat for my *** personality? that's why I can't make or maintain friendships. That's why people have thought of me as weird my entire life. maybe I'm just horrible. I'm about to spend all this money on an assessment just to be told something I already know: that I just suck. There is no real diagnosis for me. I'm just an awful person. 

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  • I often feel the same. Surrounded by reminders that the rest of the world is more hard-working and more socially generous than me. And reminders that I used to be better at both these things (albeit in an exhausted & heavily masked state). Even if I manage to find self-acceptance, it will always be a struggle to get others to accept me and not judge me. My current therapy (set up following a recent crisis) is focussed on how, as an autistic person, I can change/structure my life in accordance with values. "Compassion-focussed-therapy" is something we're trying and it has been good so far - more autism-friendly than CBT from first impressions.

    Whatever diagnosis you end up receiving, try to be kind to yourself! 

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  • I often feel the same. Surrounded by reminders that the rest of the world is more hard-working and more socially generous than me. And reminders that I used to be better at both these things (albeit in an exhausted & heavily masked state). Even if I manage to find self-acceptance, it will always be a struggle to get others to accept me and not judge me. My current therapy (set up following a recent crisis) is focussed on how, as an autistic person, I can change/structure my life in accordance with values. "Compassion-focussed-therapy" is something we're trying and it has been good so far - more autism-friendly than CBT from first impressions.

    Whatever diagnosis you end up receiving, try to be kind to yourself! 

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