So I thought I was an aspie for a few years after being teased by friends and doing an online test. But never bothered getting diagnosed properly as I thought ‘how will this actually benefit me’?
My life has been difficult and I have had problems keeping jobs and socialising, even though I am very well educated and probably quite clever - I don’t think so but the jobs I do would suggest high intelligence.
anyway got the diagnosis - which was pretty clear cut - but then the more I think about it and look into it I am convincing myself that I have something else like sociopathy or bpd.
I think I have been comparing myself to people on the internet who claim autism and I don’t see that many similarities.
I think I am trying to convince myself that I am 'normal’ but just maladjusted.
is this normal?