Hi I have been really struggling with my anxiety and I keep thinking the worst when I can’t get through to a certain friend. My friend had a heart attack last year followed by open heart surgery and when I can’t get through to him I think the worst. I end up panic calling him and panic texting and he gets so overwhelmed when I do this. I try to stop but I can’t control myself and yes this is over the top but I often think he had a silent heart attack and has died in his sleep and I know it’s unlikely to happen. I am trying to get therapy but it either to expensive or the waiting lists are too long. I am on a few waiting lists but I might not get seen until February next year. My friend really struggles when I panic call him as it’s so overwhelming for him and I understand that but I lost my mum to a heart condition and if I was to lose him as well it would absolutely destroy me. I really don’t what to do all I can do is wait and hope when I start my job I can afford therapy.
