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One month diagnosis update

Noodle

Hi Eveyone

It’s been 1 Month 2 days since my official diagnosis

I’ve been on a rollercoaster of emotions, validation, relief, upset angry that I’ve been mistreated for 34 years for just existing and being myself.

Imposter syndrome hit me also I didn’t wish to believe that I am indeed and have always been autistic.

Throughout it all I’ve began self advocating for myself, I wear my loops and headphones indoors and no longer make reasons for why i do so, I wear sunglasses inside and outside as I find eye contact painful, eat my safe foods and don’t feel bad, wearing lanyards while I travel and applied for a access card so I can enjoy days out and Ive cut off people who drain me and don’t add value to me or have just been ableist

I stim freely by myself and I know I’m not broken or weird or have something wrong with me like every person mainly neurotypical say to me. I’m autistic and that’s all I ever have to say and be proud of myself.

  • Really glad to hear everything is going ok, it sounds like it's been very positive in terms of helping you be kinder to yourself and know yourself better!

  • I also do all these things, but I don’t have diagnosis. I’ve been stimming my whole life, when someone told me “stop picking your lips”, I answered I pick my lip, not yours, so kindly mind your business. After that I got strange looks but I didn’t care. At that time I had no idea I could be autistic. I was angry that people always attack me for no reason while I’m just sitting quietly and not harming anyone. 
    Self diagnosis is enough for me, I just got answers and made peace with my old authentic self. I also had imposter. I’m here in this site longer than half year, I think nearly 9 months already, it makes me emotional in a positive way to see my old posts in some threads that someone bumped up. It’s 
    the statement or question of my life “something wrong with me” I hear it on daily basis, also from my husband. I know he doesn’t mean anything bad.
    Im happy for you, that you self advocate and that you are your true self unapologetically.