Published on 12, July, 2020
Hello,
I don't often come on here or post on the forums anymore but lately I have struggling massively.
September my cousin / godfather ended his life, before that point I had gotten my life on a track with losing weight and looking forwarded for the prospects in life.
I have become depressed and lost my routine which makes me more depressed. I also visited him at the funeral home before he was buried which I don't regret but I can't get the image out of my head. Well lack of image because I can't imagine things but my mind torments me with remembering small details about what I had seen.
I would love some advice on how to get myself back on track and move on getting my life back. My cousin wouldn't want me going around in this vicious cricle I'm currently in.
That's tough for you Erwin! Don't rush yourself with this matter. From what you have written above, you sound to be in a "non-disaster" zone (the fact that you KNOW your cousin wouldn't want you to dwell nor descend into the same pit of despair that they did = VERY healthy indicator)
Try to keep busy(ish) and sanguine(ish), but DEFINITELY patient with yourself whilst you process your loss.
I wish you well and a steady recovery back to the positive path you were on......just don't rush yourself. Bereavement is HARD!