Imposter syndrome

I have quite a lot of difficulty TOM wise, so tend to doubt the diagnosis when  coming across autistic persons  I struggle to identify with.

I’ve always believed I am autistic I was self diagnosed for a few years before I received my official diagnosus a month ago

i I agree with the diagnosis I am autistic and I have always been autistic.

I’ve also had others say but your not as autistic as so and so and I’m thinking autism is a spectrum meet one and that’s one person you’ve met,  

Oh I wasn't doubting you I just needed clarity. I myself agree with my diagnosis. But I'm high functioning, so I get a lot of "There are autistic people who are *much worse* than you, who are managing just fine!". I guess their years of training me to shut down and not talk about my problems really succeeded. But anyway.

So do you think the diagnosis was wrong? If so, what would make you think that?

I’m the same regarding humour, mine is quite sarcastic and dark humour, I tend not to do sarcasm irl because it may not land right, and when I do use my humour I panic if I’ve said something that I shouldn’t 

Thank you Patrick I’ve saved that link

Yes it’s quite common 

Hi Noodle, hits a lot of us later diagnosed people. I find it comes in waves every now and again. This piece really helped me to understand ️ shop.autisticinnovator.com/.../autistic-imposter-syndrome-why-it-s-normal

I'm glad it made you laugh. Sometimes I try to do humour and then worry a few hours that I may have got it wrong. So thanks for saying.

This is not backed up by science, but I think sometimes when I interact on here it gives me back a spoon or two. 

Imposter syndrome over being autistic?

Congratulations on getting the diagnosis! Many of us go through the mix of emotions, it will pass. It’s a part of the journey.

Thank you for this reply, I’m just upset that I was mistreated for 34 years of my life and I’m just existing being myself and this neurotypical designed world won’t let me.

i need to give myself time and I need to be in my feelings

Hi spikeymark

this response made me laugh  

I have my profile writing in green as I love that colour I even dopamine dress in green.

I definitely need 300 more tarot decks I’m obsessed  

thanks for replying and I hope to be on here when I have the spoons

I think it happens to most of us, it will wear off with time and as you get used to having a diagnosis, you're still the same person you were before diagnosis, just try and remember how you felt before being diagnosed and what made you seek diagnosis.

Hi Noodle

*looks at Noodle's profile*

*squints though the low contrast green*

This is perfectly normal. It happened to me, and lots and lots of other people.

If you ever start doubting yourself, look at your shelf and your 300+ tarot decks and say "who would need 300 of these?"

I look forward to seeing you more on here, and... CONGRATULATIONS!!!