Do you become envious of others?

Whenever I see my peers being praised, I immediately feel this deep seated feeling of envy. It's nothing personal towards them, but it's this sense of "I don't think I'm ever going to get praised like that".

Or when I do, I don't have the ability to even recognise it. I almost need their help to point it out cos otherwise I'd go years before realising "oh actually it was quite cool that I did that thing".

I don't like that I have this trait, because sometimes it just hits me like a truck and it's horrible.

I realise that I do need validation for this reason. Obviously you can go too far with it, but we all want the people around us to say they like what we're doing (whatever it is), and I got fed up of being made to feel like that was unreasonable.