how people on the spectrum cope with being parents???

... I don't know... everybody says he's a lovely caring man, who still, by some miracle, has feelings for me... I honestly am not able to say anything...to me, ever since we started living together and he refused to pay any attention to my difficulties or just to listen to what I tried to say, he turned into a man I was never able to really trust or be myself with ... as long as I had a quiet home, my personal space and freedom to do my own things I was quite well...was avoiding certain situations, of course, like would never use a power-shower  because it's too noisy  , or couldn't take a bus and was walking everywhere etc) ...  as now, even things I used to manage before are too difficult because there's no where for me to hide at home - noise and chaos everywhere, can't sleep , can't concentrate on work  because of constant anxiety ... and we're surrounded by Christian circle of friends, they all say -if you pray hard enough God will change you etc... so, no , no one I can turn to...don't have SS involed yet, but there's a lady from Children's center ...she is very supportive, been coming for a long time , helped with funding for full-time nursery .

... I don't know... everybody says he's a lovely caring man, who still, by some miracle, has feelings for me... I honestly am not able to say anything...to me, ever since we started living together and he refused to pay any attention to my difficulties or just to listen to what I tried to say, he turned into a man I was never able to really trust or be myself with ... as long as I had a quiet home, my personal space and freedom to do my own things I was quite well...was avoiding certain situations, of course, like would never use a power-shower  because it's too noisy  , or couldn't take a bus and was walking everywhere etc) ...  as now, even things I used to manage before are too difficult because there's no where for me to hide at home - noise and chaos everywhere, can't sleep , can't concentrate on work  because of constant anxiety ... and we're surrounded by Christian circle of friends, they all say -if you pray hard enough God will change you etc... so, no , no one I can turn to...don't have SS involed yet, but there's a lady from Children's center ...she is very supportive, been coming for a long time , helped with funding for full-time nursery .