Published on 12, July, 2020
Dear Sir/Madam/Other,
Yesterday, I spent 4 hours creating a profile and introducing myself.
I had not finished editing my post before it was removed considered potential spam.
Then I responded and was advised that moderators would respond in turn.
It then took me till gone 4am to sleep so stressed, stimulated and concerned was I.
I have not spoken to, heard from, or seen anybody at all since early monday.
I am extremely isolated and feel immediately rejected in the one place I thought I might find solace.
Please can you restore my post so that I might continue my edits, advise me where I have erred or remove my profile altogether and expilictly ban me with email confirmation outlining your reasons.
I apologise if I have made a mistake.
I can assure you that, if I have, it was unintentional; that I read the guidelines, do not consider I have breached them and that I wish in all things to do do my best.
Thank you for your time in reading this and in anticipation of your considered assistance.
Yours,
Karl Piza
I consulted a 'normal' working in the care sector.
He said there was nothing in my original post warranting its removal and to assume its disappearance resultant from an errant spam filter..
I repost it here based on that assessment..
Hi,
I'm Karl Piza [nom de plume/guerre].
I've diagnoses of aspergers, schizophrenia and bipolar1. Though I believe the NHS woefully/dangerously ignorant.
A friend who is a psychiatrist agrees [at least about the ignorance] and thinks I am autistic with episodic stress-induced psychosis [not having schizophrenia or bipolar1].
I believe the psychoses [very late onset] are medical injury [super-sensitivity psychosis] from long-term inappropriate prescribing of neuroleptics [more appropriate name for 'anti-psychotics’] for a diagnosis of anxiety prior to my aspergers diagnosis.
I have been diagnosed with cirrhosis and have chronic pain since 'anti-depressant' withdrawal [also a misnomer/marketing terminology].
I am almost completely against psychiatry [as it currently operates though I greatly admire the work of Drs. Joanna Moncrieff and David Healy] and prefer being screamed at by voices from the moment I wake to lying in bed doing nothing with no feelings, creativity or drive.
I was assessed by social services as requiring a bungalow, a P.A. and all professionals supporting me to have specialised autism training. That was five years ago. None of it happened. I have intense dislike for the tories' 14 years of devastation and decimation, and have little faith in 'tory-lite’.
I like music [esp. opera], cruciverbalism, cats, walking and youtube.
I have many difficulties with speech, self-care, executive function and independent living [a nonsense anyway.. INTER-dependence is crucial, the hallmark of our species/survival and failure to achieve it is why many of the socially inept can rightfully consider themselves disabled.. though this also requires a disabling environment] .
I have spent long periods struggling not to talk loudly/[near]constantly, even when alone and also had two [approx.] 3 month periods where I never spoke at all.
I have been drugged against my will and sectioned a number of times [and to large degree reasonably so - though I believe we should and must move away from the medical/pathological model asap]
I am enthusiastic about the benefits of singing and the creative arts in general.
I apologise if I fail to respond, I am struggling [unreasonably so, for reasons already stated or implied] and I have tired myself [and tend to excel in doing so]!
I look forward to reading more of others posts, ending this one, and am cognisant of/discomforted by all the 'I's herein despite this being my introduction.
Best wishes and..
Howdy Doody!
Karl