Published on 12, July, 2020
Mine was when I started school. I remember sitting on a table with other children. I felt happy enough but then they all started what felt like a word dance that I didn't know the steps to and couldn't join in with. I remember feeling very alone and confused and panicky.. I mayve had my first shut down. Felt like i was in a washing machine and sound became a background thing. Suddenly couldn't understand them. That feeling still comes in a group of people.
What was your experience?
At prep school was called the 'missing link' between man and ape. At public school was earmarked as a 'weirdo' for being naively truthful about my lack of knowledge re sex, to a dorm full of other boys in full bragging mode. That was on my 1st bedtime there. I never recovered from that. Was always the weirdo,freak etc - further not helped by being physically clumsy and struggling socially.
Ouch bless you.
People can be horrible can't they.
Trying to find a positive though, so I haven't made you all feel low with my question and dragging up all these memories, I am so grateful for this community.
It's the only place outside of family where I can be honest and be myself.
It's sad to hear all your experiences. But it's what connects us cos they're so similar.
Sending hugs- but you'll probably all hate being touched so maybe not