Published on 12, July, 2020
Been a while since I posted on here, but I just need advise or help, or something.
My head feels like it’s going to explode. I can’t express anything, it’s all just locked up inside. I have a fear response to sharing as I think I’ll be judged or ruin friendships/relationships. I even don’t feel comfortable sharing with my counsellor. Honestly, I just feel a bit desperate and lost. I watch people succeed in life and achieve what they want while my dreams feel so distant impossibilities that people won’t acknowledge even if I did express them.
I feel very on the edge at the moment. I’m 31 but feel like I have no time left in life to get to where I want to be.
I feel desperately alone most of the time. I want to feel alive.
ahhh 31...... 31 is when i turned my life around and magically got a job and magically my crypto which i put my previous jobseekers in had exploded and gone to enough to get me a home deposit... the combination created a normal life and put me ahead of everyone who had worked all the time, where i was unemployed since leaving school up to 31.
it can all change just like that... like magic... in no time. one year you could get job a house and a life and be propelled beyond people who have worked for years to try to achieve that but they havent even got it yet. anything can happen.