Published on 12, July, 2020
So I am changing jobs and really struggling with the handover of my current role.
I feel very overwhelmed as I have been working in a different office because of training the new staff, but this office is very busy and can be quite loud, whereas my old office is calm and much more of a peaceful environment.
Today, I vocalised this to my manager and requested to be put back in my old office for the duration of my notice period, to which they said they are not sure if this would be possible but they would try to sort it but is likely to only be for my last 2 days, if any days at all.
Honestly, this got me feeling tearful as I feel so uncomfortable and unsettled in this office... and I ended up crying in front of my managers! Does anybody else get overwhelmed like this? Sometimes my emotions get like this and I really struggle to keep it together when so much change is happening but this leaves me feeling very childish and also quite isolated as everybody else seems to be coping just fine with all the changes that are going on...
Yep, ended up in tears a few weeks ago at work, because somebody was leaving and it wasn't clear whether I would be expected to take on some of their work. A combination of change, uncertainty, and worry about a possible workload increase started it.
I hate it, and like you it makes me feel childish. It's happened all my life, but in some ways it's less distressing now because I know it's autism and it's not my fault. It's because other people don't understand how our minds work. They probably don't intend to cause any upset, they just cannot comprehend feeling the way we do.
Try to be kind to yourself, and remember that it's not "just you".
I agree with you about people understanding. I too wish others could understand why change is such a big thing to us.