Not eating when stressed or angry

I'm in my mid 20s, and I started doing this when I was 13.

Quite often, if I'm stressed or angry, I'll skip meals because I just won't feel like it. If I've screwed up, I'll punish myself by not eating.

If I'm angry with someone, my way of sticking it to them is to not eat. It's kind of me being spiteful, like "that person is angry with me therefore I'll hurt myself". 

There's probably little logic to it (!) but for me, it's a form of taking back some control.

Parents
  • Hi, this is something I often do. It normally accompanies becoming non verbal, for me it’s thoughts of being a bad person who needs to be punished, it’s also thoughts of being worthless and inadequate, I can look at a meal and despise it. I don’t know what the answer is, it passes in the end and I then muddle on till the next time.

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  • Hi, this is something I often do. It normally accompanies becoming non verbal, for me it’s thoughts of being a bad person who needs to be punished, it’s also thoughts of being worthless and inadequate, I can look at a meal and despise it. I don’t know what the answer is, it passes in the end and I then muddle on till the next time.

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