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Does Anyone Else Always Say Sorry or Is It Just Me?

enflores3000

For years I have had this habit whenever I feel like I have done something wrong that I just say sorry no matter what it is. I have CPTSD as I have dealt with trauma since my childhood, my father was physically abusive to my mother and my brother is physically and mentally handicapped because of it, my father blames me to this day for my brother, when I was 5 I was SAed by my 13 year old neighbor and he told my grandmother that it was my idea and she whipped me for it severely and my first relationship I was domestically abused, r*ped and blamed for it. All my life my mother used my diagnosis against me to invalidate my feelings whenever I was upset and constantly pushed me into sensory overloads and would always tell me that I don’t understand social “norms” and that I needed to accept things that were hurting me. I put all this out here because I know that a lot of this plays a role in why I constantly apologize for things but I have wondered if other Autistics who haven’t been through what I have have a habitual habit of apologizing for things or is it just me?

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  • When you're constantly told you're wrong then what else would you do but appologise?

    I think part of it is the trauma you've suffered, part of it is being British, we appologise for everything, I've walked into a lamp post and appologised to it, I also thank ATM's for giving me my money.

    I think you should see a therapist if you're not already doing so, these things are like a splinter thats worked its way under your skin and turned into a boil, you need to lance the boil and let all the bad stuff and extract the splinter, in order to heal. There may be a lot of splinters too.

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  • When you're constantly told you're wrong then what else would you do but appologise?

    I think part of it is the trauma you've suffered, part of it is being British, we appologise for everything, I've walked into a lamp post and appologised to it, I also thank ATM's for giving me my money.

    I think you should see a therapist if you're not already doing so, these things are like a splinter thats worked its way under your skin and turned into a boil, you need to lance the boil and let all the bad stuff and extract the splinter, in order to heal. There may be a lot of splinters too.

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  • in reply to TheCatWoman

    The worst part is the Autism making the trauma 10 times worse. I‘ve worked through a lot of my childhood trauma but my mother was the worst of it all and anytime I get traumatized and then it’s just neurotypicals with their lack of communication like I am some mind reader who can’t tell if I’ve upset them or not because they just don’t say and I automatically assume that I have said something wrong and upset them and apologize because I am so use to that being the case it’s really all I know.