Published on 12, July, 2020
For context, I live alone and I work full time.
I find it extremely hard to keep up with everyday tasks/chores such as cleaning, tidying etc all while working full-time. Part of this is down to difficulty finding the time in the week, so these things tend to pile up, but also I am a massive procrastinator and I am pretty unmotivated a lot of the time. My flat and especially my kitchen is constantly a mess and I feel so ashamed of it. I work nights so I sleep during the day and I sleep a lot! This means I often neglect myself too concerning things like showering and grooming. I just find day-to-day life very difficult and exhausting, which kind of makes me feel like a failure of a person and a little bit pathetic. Life would be so much easier if I didn't need to work or at least not 40 hours a week, it would give me more time for the other things but the rent isn't going to pay itself.
I struggle with house work a lot. I get so wrapped up for days on end and I just don't see the grunge. Then I do and I am chastened but it's still daunting to focus on it. I used to also have this problem with personal hygene but my NT friends have given me some guidelines to follow that have worked well there.
I can handle paperwork and office sorts of chores, like bills and online orders really well, though. I enjoy them. little lists and boxes to tick when I finish something feels good, but housework never ends.
I have a very hard time in most big box stores when it comes to shopping. they are so chaotic and frantic.
Costco is an exception because everyone who goes there is very calm and there is lots of room.
I am thinkig of asking my health insurance if they can help me with chores, AAMOF.