Published on 12, July, 2020
I’ve always struggled in life with certain aspects but found coping mechanisms to get round the problems and the various mental health issues I developed. But having recently been diagnosed with Autism at the age of 43, following my 16yr old son's diagnosis 8 months ago; I thought that now I had a cause / label for why I am the way I am it would be clear / easier and I could better understand myself; but now I feel more confused than before and notice things more and feel anger and frustration, I also don’t want to use it as an excuse. It that normal?
I got my diagnosis today and I’m completely with you on this. It wasn’t a surprise as I’d done my homework. I was expecting relief but seeing the word “disorder” in actual typeface has been a bit of a shock. I’m very good at masking and feel as if my shell has been torn away. This makes no sense as I wanted diagnosis to understand myself better and try and make my exhausting life easier. I’m 59 and only twigged I was autistic because my 23year old was newly diagnosed. I’m completely confused.