Things are not going right for me at the moment

This week has been the worst week ever. Everything has gone wrong I’m depressed all I have done is cry. I feel alone when I’m not my friends are there for me. Arguing with my boyfriend a lot this week over silly things well apart from the Claire’s law I understand how hurt and upset he was especially that he got record of violence. Today I walked to circus eruption it’s a place where people learn circus skills just to talk to him. I know I shouldn’t have done that but I didn’t know what else to do as he blocked me last night and there was no other way of contacting him. He was really calm about it luckily we had a chat then did some circus skills together spent an hour with him afterwards but that was messed up he was highly emotional from last night and from the Claire’s law incident. I just feel like nothing is going right for me I’m drained I need help but I don’t know where to find it.