Published on 12, July, 2020
I have ordered something online. Something I really want, a special treat for having survived a really long bad period. It's a one off, saved for, and I really had to be encouraged by my counselor to do this one nice thing for myself.
It was due yesterday 11-12. 6pm the app says "sorry we missed you". I have a meltdown because I'm my head it's my fault, they missed me therefore I can't have been listening properly. It's rescheduled for today
Due today 2-3pm. Same thing happens.
Now rescheduled for Monday.
I have been in waiting mode for 2 days. It's hard to do anything else at all. Yesterday I didn't eat because I was so eager to get it, restless from waiting, jumping every time the dog barked (and she barks at everything) and then too dysregulated after the failed delivery.
Today I sat in silence on the sofa waiting. No sleep last night so unable to find things to occupy myself today. Watched the delivery app. I put a sign on the door saying "I am here, make the dog bark and I'll know you're there" . I paced. I paced a lot. 5:45 I'm next on the list. Ping. "We're sorry we missed you" app shows him exiting the village.
Boom. Meltdown. I don't deserve nice things. This is punishment for wasting money. Horrible thoughts about my failings. Clearly I did something wrong.
Mate came round and dealt with the deliver company but they'll only retry on Monday, and only once more. I can't afford to lose the money I spent on this so that's causing more stress. I swear they have not been here. My dog reacts to anyone outside, the repair man this morning didn't even get to knock and she was going nuts.
Now I'm stuck in a cycle of waiting. I had planned to use the thing this weekend. Now i have no plan for the weekend, I'm tired, I hurt myself in meltdown, and I'm ashamed that someone else had to sort out the delivery company on my behalf. I'm also stuck on the "why wasn't it delivered" I need answers and I can't seem to let it go
well that cant have been evri because the evri courier would have thrown it on your roof and took a picture of it mid flight and sent that as proof its been delivered lol probably be someone elses roof though maybe.
Ah Evri that's what Hermes rebranded themselves as, "nice" to see they are as crap as ever lol.I much rather DPD, DHL, and Parcel Force if I can get them to do it.
Yes - in a way it shows the courier is being careful because they’re not just leaving it on your doorstep without checking you’re in. In my local area DPD deliveries always seem to go well - they specify the exact day and hour they’ll deliver and they’re always on time to that hour, and they do knock on the door. If im ordering something online I always check first what courier they use - and if it’s Royal Mail or DPD I feel pretty confident it will go ok (although recently I’ve had a tracked Royal Mail parcel go missing - which is unusual). I do sometimes just think I won’t bother buying something because it’s just not worth the hassle because deliveries are a bit stressful. In the vast majority of cases though it works out ok in the end, and it’s likely that will happen for you too hopefully!