I try to explain

I'm undiagnosed. My mother went to the greengrocer the other day and they asked her if I had autism. I have no idea how they arrived at that. I just buy my fruit, be polite and go.

Today, I said I was sorry for all the things I fall short on that she complains about daily. She just said, "You're not autistic untill you have been diagnosed, so you have no excuse".

She is right I guess. 

I'll just keep going. I would like to be out of her hair though, as I upset her. "Why can't you be like everyone else? No wonder you don't have a girlfriend".

It's not her fault. It's mine. 

I think I might be the worst thing can can happen to her. She is focused on grandchildren,which I can't provide.

Anyone could, but I won't as children need the best start in life.She already has grandchildren.

I have a cute Bengal cat though so that's nice. 

I'd love to live in a place on my own without offending. 

I don't have anything to offer and would just like to live.