Published on 12, July, 2020
When it was first suggested to me that I might be autistic I began watching various autistic influencers on YouTube and read books by similar people.
But one glaring thing stuck out for me, and I’ve just come across another example. Specifically, these influencers without exception seem to be married, be in a relationship, have children.
And yet for me the single most life-ruining aspect of my condition is my utter inability to form relationships. It’s like everyone else has telepathy and I don’t. I thought this was one of the defining characteristics of autism.
So are these high profile authors and videographers representative of autistic people or am I the sad exception?
I struggle with the short videos that boil down a complex disorder to ‘5 signs you are autistic’ and it’s all different types of stimming.
Particularly when going through the identity crisis of a late diagnosis. Often have to remind myself of the realities of other people’s struggles and no hold judgement. Which can be hard at times.