Published on 12, July, 2020
Hello, hello,
I ask this, as, until recently I never realised how important my routines are to me. I've spent the first 20 years of my life sticking to the same things, same foods, same drinks, same shops and yet this morning when it came to buttering my toast an awful realisation fell upon me.
THERE WAS A DIFFERENT BUTTER TO THE ONE I'VE BEEN BUYING FOR YEARS!!!!!!
Noooooooo.
How could this happen?
I applied the INFERIOR IMPOSTER butter to a slice of toast but it was no good. I couldn't bring myself to try it. I was gagging, hands shaking.
I ended up in tears. Neurotypicals would surely think this is pathetic but I know my Neurokin will understand this horribly horrid situation.
Someone in my brain, one of the Mini Misters will be for the chop for allowing this to happen!
Sigh.
This is going to take the rest of the day to get over. I've not had any breakfast, the wrong butter is in the bin never to see the light of day again and now one must face the shops, and, buy the RIGHT butter.
Until this terrible ordeal I did not realise how much my routines mattered to Moi.
There are certain parts and aspects of My life that are very strictly routine driven (I have OCD also, so suspect that this comes into play with this, particularly with counting steps and actions that I’d repeat daily).
There are other aspects of my life that are much less routine driven, like being at work, where I have less control over how the day works out. I feel my home routine is more structured to kind of compensate for this lack of routine/control during the day.
I fully get the butter situation. There are some things like that, that would just get to me and I couldn’t deal with.