Published on 12, July, 2020
Hi, I just stumbled across this site and found myself reading the discussions which are very interesting. I set up a profile which you’re welcome to ignore because I don’t really know completely what I’m on about but these are the half unformed thoughts about myself and my life that I have been wondering about.
How do you know if you’re just above average intelligent/academic or on the autism spectrum?
I might say something wrong while explaining this, I’m sorry if I have already, using wrong terms etc because I’m not deeply educated on it.
I’ve kind of been thinking isn’t it rational to shun socializing if you’re intelligent and not necessarily in an environment where you have connection with other intelligent people?.
Isn’t preferring objects to people rational for someone academic? Humans are quite silly and frivolous and unless you’re working at a top uni, not going to be highly intelligent. But does avoidance of them mean you’re arrogant or use your brain in a more productive way. Some people take drugs or drink so maybe they’re not going to be using their brain to its full capacity.
So isn’t it just a survival instinct that if you’re clever, you’re going to prefer to be alone rather than settle for averagely intelligent humans, which might look like there’s something wrong.
Isn’t it a fact that we live in an unaesthetic, Capitalist, Consumerist driven world that often makes the man/woman made world quite ugly, full of fake advertising and trash. So isn’t avoiding all that sensory disingenuous junk again rational?
Isn’t it rational to order the world around us, so isn’t keeping collections and cataloging the height of intelligence?
Doesn’t it just mean that you’re a good person if you like rules and like them to be followed?
Isn’t the best way to get things done during the day to have a repetitious routine? And not liking it when undisciplined people come along and try and tear you from your strict routine, just because they’re lazy and lack focus and are addicted to frivolous hedonism.
Might be utter junk coming out of my head, thank you
My history is that at 17 I dropped out of society became a recluse until 23 when I went to uni and did a degree and MA in Art. Obsessive about my artwork, it’s my life, it is my heart and soul but haven’t tried to sell it because I don’t want to deal with buyers. So I do a normal job to not starve to death. But am 40s now and constantly have problems in my jobs because of the people. No tolerance for other colleagues, don’t find them interesting, would prefer to be alone, don’t like authority. The only job I’ve ever loved is delivery driving as I’m in the car alone, spend minimal time with colleagues and get to listen to intelligent books in my car. So even though I’m at work I get to control my environment and create a world of academia while being paid. I listen to Great Courses a lot and particularly love the history ones. Currently listening to one about ancient Mesoamerica. So I have two jobs delivering which I love and the people one which I struggle with. What I struggle with my people job is no one is pushing their brain fast or hard enough. But then maybe that doesn’t mean I’m on the spectrum but just that I should go into teaching. But then I couldn’t do that because of the people and lack of control of my environment. So I feel in a bit of a vicious circle where I can’t really go anywhere. Can only continue to keep making Art to pile up in the house and deliver to make money.
No children or partner either. Which I am happy about because Art is my everything, I can’t have distractions, divide my time etc.