Published on 12, July, 2020
In my case, many have told me that I have made them feel uncomfortable so I've really had to look at myself.
I've never intended to, but I think me being so closed off emotionally (masking perhaps) plus a lot of bad habits didn't really help. I've spilled my guts to people I didn't know very well, and have probed people for personal info sometimes. I regret all of that and am a lot more aware of how I come across, as well as what's appropriate and what's not.
I started looking at how Ed Sheeran speaks and conducts himself in interviews. He'll be the first to admit that he's not the most expressive man in the world but I always think he has a coolness and swagger when he speaks and I wish I had that, but I'm basically masking if I try and emulate him.
The people who used to be in my life would probably describe me as quite expressive sometimes, even though my sense of humour has always been quite dry (another something which doesn't help perhaps?).
I guess it's just about finding that confidence.
No I'm not conscious of how I come across to others. Everyone hates me and I haven't got a clue why!
ah but if you perceive everyone hates you then you are conscious that they hate you and therefore conscious that you come across to them in some way in which makes them hate you.and yeah, i think its because normies have too much social interation maybe that they can afford to hate randoms and cast aside others.... where as we are limited social interaction and would more want to treat everyone as a friend as we lack friendship and social interaction. its the haves vs the have not attitude. the haves take it for granted as they have too much, so they cast aside and hate easy. the have nots dont have it so we cherish every relation and want to make everyone a friend.
For me friendship is not an automatic default despite it being my preference. As with credibility which must be earned, so too must friendship. My big problem is with maintenance of friendships. I get bored easily, and my communication skills are poor face to face. My response is slow, if at all. Body language is above my head.