Published on 12, July, 2020
This is quite embarrassing to write but I'm going to do it anyway. Okay - this might just be a 'me' thing - if that's the case please just ignore this post but:
Why is getting washed and/or clean so hard?
I don't know if it is an autistic thing but getting in the shower/changing clothes/changing bedding and doing laundry is so hard for me. I am an independent adult I should be able to function better. :(
I just had a shower and washed my hair for the first time in X weeks (too ashamed to say). I feel better now and I smell nice, so why don't I manage to do it more often?
I live alone and rarely go out or see people, so my lack of washing isn't bothering anyone. I wanted to ask my weekly cleaner to help me change my sheets but I am too ashamed for her to see the state of my bed so its something I will have to tackle alone.
Anyway, if anyone can relate please comment below, or if you just want to tell me I'm being a big baby that's also fine.
It's a lot to do and the effort to do said things like washing/changing etc all use up valuable energy which can result in severe fatigue and then headaches and aching. That's what happens to me if I do too much so sadly my hair etc has to wait until I'm ready.
It's like making the beds really takes it out of me, I am exhausted after. I don't know why. It's a normal thing but it just zaps the energy from me. I've got to dress the girls, bathe them etc after doing all that I need to lay down and wait for the fatigue to pass.
You're definitely not being a baby. It takes a lot for us to process and do things so it's more than understandable.