Since getting my diagnoses I still don’t feel validated in who I am I thought that I would be but I don’t. Having an official diagnoses isn’t enough for me I want everyone in my life and anyone who has ever known me to know that I’m autistic idk why but I just do I guess maybe so that they can understand me more and judge me less. I also want everyone I meet to know straight away that I’m autistic so I don’t have to mask as much but it’s weird telling a stranger something like that as soon as you meet them so I don’t but inside I really really want to tell them. A lot of people have called me weird and awkward so that’s why I want everyone to know I’m autistic so when they think I’m weird and awkward they know why (even though I don’t think autistic people are weird and awkward). I had a trail shift today in a market and I did so well. The people were nice and everyone was clean so that’s a plus. I stayed the whole shift but I’m not going back it was too packed, it smelled and I didn’t know where to look. I hate not being able to keep a stable job I really want to but I just can’t. I wish I could create my own job and work it.