Feeling upset by the way people talk about autism even though they don’t mean to

Hi, It has happened a few times now that I have felt quite upset and triggered by the way people talk about autism. I now work as a developmental neurobiologist so inevitably I end up in situations at work where autism is being mentioned or talked about. For example today, someone defined autistic traits as ‘being unable to act in a social manner and not being able to perform in society’. Then there have been numerous occasions where autism is referred to as a ‘developmental disorder’ , people talk about deficits, treatment etc.  I know this isn’t meant to be upsetting and I am not expecting people to change how they talk about it but I still find this upsetting. I then wonder - am I really that broken? It also makes me worry what people would think about me if they knew I was autistic- would they then see me as an unsociable person unable to perform in society? I am feeling quite insecure and overwhelmed anyways at the moment with new work, recently moving etc, so I am being overly sensitive and crippled from low confidence in myself anyways. I almost burst into tears today because I felt so inadequate as I was listening to all this talk about how dysfunctional autistic people are. Does anyone have any advice on how to cope with these situations? I feel like there are so many misconceptions about autistic people out there that lots of people must have experienced similar in various settings. 

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  •  I know this isn’t meant to be upsetting and I am not expecting people to change how they talk about it but I still find this upsetting. I then wonder - am I really that broken?

    You are not broken, you are perfectly autistic!

    I am sorry you have to be surrounded by others who talk about your identity in a pathologising and inaccurate way. I would be upset too, the way you are feeling is perfectly valid.

    Do your colleagues know you are autistic? It’s obviously not your responsibility to educate others about autistic experience but doing so could help change this situation. Would you feel comfortable educating others about autistic experience? I would understand if you don’t.

  • Hi, No they don't know I am autistic. I was close to telling one person at some point (actually just after another talk on autism that really triggered me), but I hesitated and it probably wasn't the right moment. I barely know them yet so I haven't felt comfortable telling them yet. Though it probably would help possibly to show them that being autistic might not be what they think it is. I told one person at my previous work and she was really nice but her reaction was 'oh really, I don't think you can be autistic' (funnily this person had also worked in autism research but not actually with autistic people....). So I am a bit hesitant to tell them at this point. Though knowing me I will probably end up blurting it out at a random and non-ideal moment when my desire to be honest and overshare gets the better of me... Thanks so much for your reply though. I'm still quite recently diagnosed so sometimes it all is very confusing. 

  • Also they are lovely people. I have rarely been in a group of such nice people. So I know that it is in no way meant to upset anyone. I just think they probably don't know better. 

  • It’s good to know you are surrounded by lovely people, they obviously don’t have bad intentions then. That must reassure you. They are just uneducated about autistic experience. 

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