Cancelling plans last minute due to fear of social aspect

Hi, recently to many people in my life (my boyfriend, my two closest friends etc, work) I just keep cancelling so last minute because i just think of how exhausting it is having to be around people and mask. It will always be after i’ve talking about it and said i will for like a week, and then finally when it comes down to having to get ready and leave I just feel frozen. 

This makes me feel so bad because i keep disappointing people, just wondering what people here think about it? 

Should i start trying to go anyway or is it a better idea to avoid the situations that i know stress me out? 

Also, does anyone have any tips particularly for female masking - have you ever tried to not mask? What happened? 

Parents
  • Are you able to organise smaller meetings, one or two fiends somewhere quiet?  I suggest telling them that the noise and complexity of trying to manage interacting with more than a couple of people at a time is really hard, even though you wold really like to see them.

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  • Are you able to organise smaller meetings, one or two fiends somewhere quiet?  I suggest telling them that the noise and complexity of trying to manage interacting with more than a couple of people at a time is really hard, even though you wold really like to see them.

Children
  • Full disclosure, I gave up on having friends  a long time ago, so maybe I am not qualified to comment. I went to 'leaving drinks' a few weeks back for someone at work, stayed for a little over an hour and had a good meltdown when I got home.
    I am not successful when it comes to socialising.  I think I understand the theory, I just can't manage it in practise.