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Fear getting old as an autistic person?

Dawn

I do.

I really do. My sensory stuff causes mayhem in medical contexts. There's more as you get older. My GP thinks I "suffer with autism" (God help me!). I fear all medical treatment. I fear all doctor's appointments. How the Hell do I even speak to them when something is wrong.

The only services that exist are for the intellectually impaired or children.

Where do I go? What do I do?

I fear every tiny twinge in my body.

I fear being locked up in an old peoples' home, forced to socialised in bingo games I do not want to participate in; forced to bang a tambereen while a school choir sings.

I fear being left to the mercy of under paid staff in a care home where the state robs you of a life time of struggle which should be left to your kid, while they squander that abusing you.

In the words of The Who: "Hope I die before I get old"

At 58 I am aware that I have already out lived autistic life expectancy. That's 54. I was 56 when diagnosed. I am happy I lived life as an autistic person (albeit I had no idea I was one), but how the Hell do you manage to grow old as an autistic person?

I'm scared. And I am still looking after elderly parents who depend on me and haven't even retired myself yet.

Everything about old age is scary. And I'm scared.

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  • I intend to purchase an overdose-level amount of opiates via the dark web if I get a health problem I can't treat myself.

  • in reply to HP35

    well technically theres many day to day problems we cant treat ourselves, like hemerhoids, broken bones, diabetes and alot more lol

    dark web is probably tricky and too hard to figure out though, over the counter sleeping pills can probably do the job. combined with lots of vodka is you want a bit of a kick to go down with it.

  • in reply to Caelus

    I'm not sure what "over the counter" sleeping pills you mean. Benzos (not OTC) are the only ones that stand any chance of killing you, although they're much more likely to be successful in combination with opiates. I do plan to include them.

    I broke a bone three weeks ago and it's healing up pretty well, actually.

    Diabetes is manageable through diet and the medications used to treat it aren't controlled substances, so not difficult to import from clearweb pharmacies.

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  • in reply to Caelus

    I'm not sure what "over the counter" sleeping pills you mean. Benzos (not OTC) are the only ones that stand any chance of killing you, although they're much more likely to be successful in combination with opiates. I do plan to include them.

    I broke a bone three weeks ago and it's healing up pretty well, actually.

    Diabetes is manageable through diet and the medications used to treat it aren't controlled substances, so not difficult to import from clearweb pharmacies.

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