idk if anyone will even see this post . Today I had my appointment with my new psychiatrist Lily she was nice and i told her stuff she said to me what is causing my suicidal thoughts and so I had to explain to her everything. Plz don't delete this post moderators because i am not writing anything bad but yeah she asked me lots and lots of questions she was like in her mid 20s who can be a psychiatrist in their mid 20s she looked like a 15yrs old honestly to me . Anyways I'm glad i dont feel as suicidal as I used to be so yeah . I should be grateful but not idk why i always write this much . i just don't feel any better. Yesterday was my mom's birthday and I ruined it for her i'm grounded now and my father won't reply to me idk what I'm supposed to do anymore so yeah idk . I even cancelled all my subscriptions since i left college . I'm just acting really stupid rn . now i have MRS MCMAHON MRS MARTIN KATIE , CHRIS(DBI) , LUCY , MH TEAM , LILY , SAMARITANS , YM and selina that i talk about my mh so yeah