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Assessment now I have gone splat!

Aaron

Hi guys

Recently I have been attending long assessments. Last week was four hours online. Yesterday was in person for three hours.

I wanted to be in person at the facility so travelled on two buses for one and a half hours. Was excited to go. All intense had to take a break and pop to a cafe. Now nearly finished. It is all going ahead. Can’t go back now and the assessor said yes I am Autistic but has to wait for results from the Lorna Wing Centre. I have gone splat!. Exhausted and feel very strange. Nearly had panic attacks yesterday because of fear and stigma concepts even though I have recently met lots of Autistics and know we are all human and no longer thought I was an alien. Not sure what is happening to me. Hope I have done the right thing. No turning back. Who am I. Do I exist lol! Is this really true?  I feel a bit better this evening. 

I like the disco assessment and thought it would be better for myself because of the complexity of stuff.  Is this really me.

what’s going to happen now. I hope my horrible phobias don’t get worse again.  Sorry folks.

love to you all.

Parents

  • I'm sorry you're feeling like that. The exhaustion (mental and physical) and having to wait for the "official" results may make everything feel even worse. Hopefully, your phobias remain stable but if they worsen and affect your quality of life, please do seek professional help.

    Regarding the stigma, people don't understand all forms of Autism. For some Autistics who mask well, it's a hidden disability. I've only told people I trust - my boyfriend and my 2 closest online friends who I've known 5 years.

    I've been going through the identity problems too: am I the Autistic persona or am I the masking persona? It's probably both. It takes time to adjust emotionally. Things seem better in my head if I'm not exhausted and if my anxiety is controlled. 

    Take care.

  • in reply to Kitty Pes

    Hi Thanks Kitty I feel better now. I will get the result in May. Went a bit weird but ok today.

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