Late diagnosis and noticing traits

I was diagnosed last year at 32 and I've begun to notice a lot more traits, and in particular stimming. The problem is that I'm now not sure if I'm doing things because I feel I should be doing them, or if it's just that I'm just noticing it more. The one thing that makes me feel less of an imposter is when I notice I've been doing something, like rocking or mushing my fingers together (can't think of a better way to describe that) for a while without noticing it. Does/has anyone else experienced this after a late diagnosis?

Parents
  • Yes! I've been pondering this a lot. I'll say more at some point, but for now I have theory that I was repressing stims all through my formative years and even into early middle age. Variety of reasons. But over the last 18 months of living alone again (I was in my parental home for a bit) the stims have crept in, or found gradual release in an environment of not feeling one 'should' be fidget-free. 

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  • Yes! I've been pondering this a lot. I'll say more at some point, but for now I have theory that I was repressing stims all through my formative years and even into early middle age. Variety of reasons. But over the last 18 months of living alone again (I was in my parental home for a bit) the stims have crept in, or found gradual release in an environment of not feeling one 'should' be fidget-free. 

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