I have low functioning Asperger’s (with some mental health issues) and in my highschool (kings grove) I was severely bullied and lock in a storage cupboard by a teacher, the teachers would also try to get the other students in on it and amongst other things and I don’t want to go into detail. I thought after school things would get better and even with medication and a partner I still myself on outside looking in even more so when I try to get friends, no matter group I try to get involved with and always being pushed out and it gotten to the point where am always closed off unable to talk to anyone about anything. Am always being laughed at, bullied and it gotten to the point where I have high blood pressure and find myself crying all the time, am scare to open to my mouth and even have carers who goad me into subjects and then report me, everytime am around other people am reminded why I have people and just want to either sleep all day or stay in my bedroom. I don’t have any energy and I use to workout but can’t find the motivation, I spoken to many therapists over the years but they never actually listen or just strike me off with an option to go back if I need to.
My blood is always boiling and it starting to effect my health and I don’t know what to do or where to go for help if I can even be helped. When I try to open up to people they call me a drama Queen or laugh at me or tell me am “doing okay”. Am slowly driving myself insane wanting to get involved in groups but always being pushed out or meeting new people only to find out they are either nasty people or they don’t want me around, it gotta be me, I hate these feelings and hate feeling like this. Any advice would be nice.
