Just diagnosed yesterday.

Hi,

Yesterday I was diagnosed with level 1 autism spectum.  I'm 45. Female.  And although the diagnosis doesn't suprise me - I had figured it out, and took myself for testing.   I find myself sad for my younger self, and frankly angry at all those folks who could, and perhaps should, have spotted something when I was a child. I have just one life, and I've spent 45 years feeling that I was somehow failing, when all I needed was someone to recognise neurodivergence. 

Anyone else feel this way?

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  • I can relate very strongly. When i realized i was autistic i started reflecting on my past and what could have been. I've been beating myself up for not performing in social situations and underachieving in all aspects of my life but not anymore. There are probably millions of people worldwide who are born and die never knowing they are autistic so i feel fortunate that i found out at 35, even though i wish it had been spotted in my childhood. 

  • Thanks Jamie, this is a really good perspective to have on it.  I suspect my father was one of those who were born and died without ever knowing.  I guess we are lucky to know.   Thanks for sharing this.

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