Stimming / Meltdown

I'm reading comments to get an idea of responses. I'll join in with "brilliant ' 

Thank you, I most probably haven’t written it very well, it just felt so right and normal.  I just don’t want to hide away so much.

It wasn't your writing at all Roy. Sometimes I don't know what response people are looking for. I don't want to give empathy where praise should be been given, as an example. So I use the replies of others as a guidance.  

I should have kept that struggle to  myself when making the above comment, but true to me I answered honestly, and so it was included.

I apologise, I did not make to feel you had explained yourself unclearly. 

It wasn't your writing at all Roy. Sometimes I don't know what response people are looking for. I don't want to give empathy where praise should be been given, as an example. So I use the replies of others as a guidance.  

I should have kept that struggle to  myself when making the above comment, but true to me I answered honestly, and so it was included.

I apologise, I did not make to feel you had explained yourself unclearly. 

I get by asking others for their opinion because giving my own, just to make sure I've understood what is being asked. Too many wrong interpretations have taught me that lesson. Although I've today realised that's what I do, and why. Being here is certainly teaching me things about myself.

A lengthy yet very important, and necessary thing to do.

I'm constantly worried that people here will tell me I'm not autistic. My own paranoia at play there. And struggling with feeling like I'm 2 people. If I stopped needing reassurance (which I don't a for as that invites what I fear most) then I could get to the gently scrubbing stage

Hi, I hadn’t really thought about a response,  what I hadn’t factored in is how other autistic people would interpret it. I’ve always just functioned in a neurotypical world, their views are always easy to predict. 

I'm getting there slowly....washing away 50+ years of false normalising mask wearing isn't a few weeks work - I'm gently scrubbing away so I don't damage the surfaces that lie beneath.....I want to emerge all shiny and pristine!

Having found my weird tribe, I can say that I wholly embrace my weirdness (At home).

Honestly......I think you are weird....My kinda weird !

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Thank you Number. You help me to be more accepting of myself each day

Please don't keep your internal dialogues and debates to yourself - they make me feel far less alone!