I'm undiagnosed, and although everyone is lovely here on the forum I'm still finding it hard not to feel like a tourist. Some of the advice and suggestion from the forum have been very helpful, but I reluctant to really talk to people as I'm not really part of this. It that normal? I wanted to get to know other autistic adults, but I don't feel like I'm at a place in my lift where the stress of the diagnosis journey would be worth it. Where I live the health services are so overwhelmed I'm not a priority, and rightly so. If I was younger it would be amazing, but I've made it this far without it I thought I should stick to acceptance. But it seems to fit so I'm curious enough to break my isolation a little.
I joined a meet up group online for adult autistics, but the keep meeting up and having events like board games. Are autistic people all good at board games? I never played any. Does this mean I'm not autistic? The other one was some sought of meal and I hate eating out. I know it sounds stupid, but things like this just put me off reaching out. On some level I knew there is a lot of diversity within the community, but I feel like I don't have a guest pass, and can't access it. Do any other undiagnosed people feel the same?
