Recently, I have been feeling really burnt out. There are areas of stress in my life that are constantly pushing.
I don't know about you guys but I find that when people ask constant and simultaneous questions, it overwhelms me.
I know they are only sharing that they care and are there to support me but I can't help but feel so overwhelmed. Bombarded nearly every thought of what is bothering me floods in like I'll burst. Running around my mind as the person is still asking questions. I don't know which one to answer first. I don't know how to tell them that I want to be left alone or that I need some air or simply that I just don't want to be around anyone. I want to be in a dark quiet room where I can be on my own to breath and calm myself down. So that I can focus on myself and my feelings.
The thoughts run around getting faster and faster. then I burst. I cry and lash out I scream and yell and I end up hurting those I'm speaking to. I get so anxious I curl up. Self soothing by scratching my arms, but every time this happens I get yelled at. Told to stop crying, calm down, just breath. I can't help but get annoyed. The person didn't realize what they were doing was triggering. I don't know what to do. I just want to run away and be on my own. In my own room where it's safe.
It happens mostly with parents. They claim to be my biggest supporters but don't do their research. They don't listen to me when I explain my triggers. I feel so alone.
How do I encourage my parents to educate themselves about Autism. I feel like it's my fault.
