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I’ve lost my passion

AmyLR94

Recently I have been finding it hard to find a career that I think I maybe good at. Years ago I did a year of hairdressing, a year of L2 childcare and then two years of L3 childcare, I was so excited to have a career with children. But then all in the same week I finished college, had a job interview, got the job and started the job…which resulted me in having a meltdown and ended up going on sick pay.

Now seven years later I have decided that I would like to try and look for a career. From 2020 - 2022 I started off looking for things do with animals and for months I searched for courses, apprenticeships, internships basically everything but because of my age and because I don’t drive there was no options for me. Next I went to looking to work in bookshops, but again there was no jobs going/I didn’t have the experience. So then I thought about charity work (since I’m literally surrounded by charity shops but shockingly I need references or in some cases a DBS check.

For a while I was really down and didn’t know what to do, I haven’t done childcare in years but I felt it was my only option. My mum said since I was always interested in working with SpLDs (Special Learning Difficulties) children why not be a SEN teachers assistant. So I started having a refresher course on my childcare, and started doing a SpLD 12 week course online.

But recently I have lost my passion for my course. I feel like I can’t be bothered or maybe I’m just fed up Shrug tone1‍♀️but now I feel down again and feel like I can’t do any job like a normal person can do. I’m really lost and I don’t know where I can go from here SobSob x

  • in reply to AmyLR94

    FYI - The two posts below are bots, not humans

  • in reply to Deleted User

    This means so much to me I think I was having a down day or something, because talking to my friend she mentioned (when I told her I wanted to be a SEN teacher’s assistant) that if her autistic son had a TA who was like him and understood what he was going through, it would help him so much and make him feel less alone.

    I never got the help I needed when I was younger so helping children who have disabilities and difficulties is something I’m passionate about, giving them the help I never got and seeing them learning is something beautiful.

    I remember the feeling I got when I was in a placement (this is pre-diagnosis) and I had my own handwriting group. I can’t remember how long I was there for, but from the start to when I was leaving this little boys handwriting improved so much because of me . The parents even mentioned it to the teacher noticing the changes, in which they introduced me to them saying it was me to helped him improved . I just love that feeling! x

  • in reply to Shardovan

    Boomer !  (INSERT friendly, I'm trying to be witty, grey-haired emoji)

  • in reply to AmyLR94

    Yeah I suppose I oversimplified a good bit. But 30…it’s nothing. That sounds sooooo young to me from this distance. You’ll find your way again, just don’t panic! 

  • AmyLR94 said:
    I can’t do any job like a normal person can do.

    You may be right - but I don't think that should prove a problem to you nor others.  There is a very good chance that you "can do any job BETTER than a normal person can do."  Don't discount this being a reality.

    AmyLR94 said:
    But recently I have lost my passion for my course.

    There is a positive hidden in what you write here.....if you have lost your passion, it means that you DID have passion for it at some stage.

    Perhaps you are not actually as lost as you fear?  Perhaps you are simply having a "down" period.  I'm quite old and been able to look at my cycles of behaviour over time - and I note that many of the older folk on these pages have similar cycles reported.

    Don't give up.  Ride out this woe you feel.  It won't last forever, no matter what you decide.  However, if you are simply looking for some "from the hip" advice from a boomer, then I suggest you look for a way to reinvigorate the original passion that you had for your course......perhaps watch some inspirational youtube videos of kids who have been transformed by good teaching & good support - from the type of person that you hope to be.  It can be INCREDIBLY rewarding to do what you are training for.

    If in doubt, keep calm and carry on.  Best wishes

  • in reply to Shardovan

    Thank you for replying, I guess I am just feeling scared because next year I will be 30.

    I have considered volunteering in a charity shop as I mentioned above saying they need references and/or DBS checks. Working in a shop such as Morrisons or Aldi might not be okay with me, as I don’t loud noise/ bright lights and crowds.

    I have considered working in a library but while researching it says I need a degree to working in a library Pensive . As for library studies if that is in a Uni I have no money for the courses/ uni’s are HUGE Sweat smile and the last time I considered Uni they said if I couldn’t cope with an online course/college course then I won’t cope in Uni (she said it very snarky too and it was before my diagnosis)

    So I’m stuck Sweat smile, thanks for your help though x

  • Sorry to hear you’re feeling so lost. I’m not sure what to advise. I remember being 22, finishing a post grad diploma I hated, resolving I was never  going to work in that field, and then… feeling the weight of the world come off my shoulders as I decided to ask if my part time job in a shop could be full time for a while. Maybe something like that? A retail gig of some kind. Have considered library studies as you’d like to work with books? Or sometimes temp jobs in libraries come up. I hope you connect with something soon, but you’re young as well. Don’t put too much pressure on yourself to know exactly what you want