Recently I have been finding it hard to find a career that I think I maybe good at. Years ago I did a year of hairdressing, a year of L2 childcare and then two years of L3 childcare, I was so excited to have a career with children. But then all in the same week I finished college, had a job interview, got the job and started the job…which resulted me in having a meltdown and ended up going on sick pay.
Now seven years later I have decided that I would like to try and look for a career. From 2020 - 2022 I started off looking for things do with animals and for months I searched for courses, apprenticeships, internships basically everything but because of my age and because I don’t drive there was no options for me. Next I went to looking to work in bookshops, but again there was no jobs going/I didn’t have the experience. So then I thought about charity work (since I’m literally surrounded by charity shops but shockingly I need references or in some cases a DBS check.
For a while I was really down and didn’t know what to do, I haven’t done childcare in years but I felt it was my only option. My mum said since I was always interested in working with SpLDs (Special Learning Difficulties) children why not be a SEN teachers assistant. So I started having a refresher course on my childcare, and started doing a SpLD 12 week course online.
But recently I have lost my passion for my course. I feel like I can’t be bothered or maybe I’m just fed up 
♀️but now I feel down again and feel like I can’t do any job like a normal person can do. I’m really lost and I don’t know where I can go from here 
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