Hello,
Undiagnosed 40-year-old who just discovered that I'm probably autistic with a high probability.
It has been a struggle coming to terms with broken relationships and damaged friendships throughout my entire life because I didn't fully understand myself.
I've seen numerous friendships end in a blink,a marriage fail, and my current marriage pushed to the brink of an affair because she thought I was just being an ***.
I like having friends but I struggle to make them and definitely struggle (mutism) in social situations without a friend.
I work from home exclusively and find my life extremely and crushingly solitary leading me to put too much weight on my wife who often works 60-hour weeks and 13-hour days.
I can mask myself to become an extrovert sometimes. I'm captain of a trivia team and have started Meetup groups but it is exhausting for me.
My biggest trigger is when routines are broken or when plans are canceled last second.
My hyperfocus is movies and TV. I like writing about them as a creative outlet and run a review account on Instagram (@likelovehatereviews).
I would love to find some lasting connections with people in a similar situation on here.
