Autistic Inertia

Dawn, this is often something I struggle with and the longer it goes on the deeper it gets. I feel it often needs an outsider to get the push going.

Now that I know I'm autistic, I can see I've had mini bouts of burnout and inertia in the distant past and longer ones in more recent years. This is protracted though. I'm sure it's getting worse as I get older.

In between them, I'm quite an industrious person ordinarily...inertia maybe going the other way into hyperfocus; too busy on a single thing for my own good.

I've been through a lot in recent years and I'm wondering whether the trauma of dealing with MH or feeling in limbo with another personal issue which has dragged on has something to do with it, or whether I'm still burnt out too.

What you say about other people is good though. I have some Ukrainian guests arriving next week. Maybe looking after them will put a rocket up my bum and make me look after me too.

The external force is why I seem to have no problem getting motivated to do my job. I feel often it's either hyper focus or nothing at allness and I'm wondering if the periods of nothingness are what I need for recovery. But I don't feel that fully explains it. Often I really do want to get going but can't seem to. Even for things I'm interested in and want to do.

I do think there's the "day to day" inertia which has probably got worse since I'm now part time in my job, but I feel there's life inertia in that I know I need to make fundamental changes but can't seem to get going. I'm in a state of ennui I suppose too.

I do put pressure on myself that I "should" be able to do this or that or just start or just get on with it. This then makes me feel like pap and I know it's not being kind to myself but I can't help it. 

I'm sure looking after your guests will be really good for you in the rocket up the bum sense as it'll be a switch of focus. I often find if I have a switch if focus it helps.

I think often situations and our feelings don't just come down to one thing. It might be for you a mixture of burnout and inertia and other things going on.

The external force is why I seem to have no problem getting motivated to do my job. I feel often it's either hyper focus or nothing at allness and I'm wondering if the periods of nothingness are what I need for recovery. But I don't feel that fully explains it. Often I really do want to get going but can't seem to. Even for things I'm interested in and want to do.

I do think there's the "day to day" inertia which has probably got worse since I'm now part time in my job, but I feel there's life inertia in that I know I need to make fundamental changes but can't seem to get going. I'm in a state of ennui I suppose too.

I do put pressure on myself that I "should" be able to do this or that or just start or just get on with it. This then makes me feel like pap and I know it's not being kind to myself but I can't help it. 

I'm sure looking after your guests will be really good for you in the rocket up the bum sense as it'll be a switch of focus. I often find if I have a switch if focus it helps.

I think often situations and our feelings don't just come down to one thing. It might be for you a mixture of burnout and inertia and other things going on.