OK so today well did not even have a good week i went and spoke to my lecturer michael and my mentor too since she came back from holiday . I well i was actually feel suicidal i spoke to my mentor about everything going on this week and accidently mentioned i want to just kill my f******* sister and then she told me her role changed and now she never ever ever read my emails and she also put an automated email which after i finished with her at 3 i went to the prayer room in college and cried for 1h in front of my mental health team . My lecturer name is michael and i said wish someone would die. Next week sarah my developmental worker she finished with me in january something will be back and i blocked her because she was the person who made me get worse and suicidal maybe she will be back maybe she won't i sent her an email 6h ago saying the f word and how i'm not going to talk to her anymore until december something . . Yeah that's what mainly happened today and why i was feeling suicidal but now I'm ok thankfully . And oh i just found out I'm dyslexic
