I struggle with the same thing. I try to appreciate being alone. because I know that no matter what happens, ill always have me. the person i’m most comfortable with, the person who’s the most reliable, the person who will always be there at the end of the day, is me. loneliness sucks. the inability to be comfortably outgoing and social sucks. but it only sucks because we’ve been conditioned to think it sucks. its okay to be alone. for about 15 years of my life I didn’t really have anyone, or at least anyone who was healthy for me. but then I made a big decision to change my environment and within just the first week I found my people. i still get exhausted if i’m with them for a long time, and that lingering discomfort is always there. i don’t see them a lot. but i know they’re still there if i want to see them, they respect my space and my need for alone time. and even if they weren’t there, id still have me. and that’s enough.