Cant take much more

My head lies to me all the time, its hard to know the truth sometimes 

Thank you that means a lot. Talking on here has really helped, it makes me feel like I can get through a bit more

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you know you can always reach out here.  We've got your back.

That is such a comfort 

Thank you. Dont worry im not going to do anything, my parents are here too looking after me so im not on my own

Im waiting to hear back from my Limited Capability assesment and PIP but being treated like a normal person who has to keep going into appointments every week. I was on Jobseekers for along time in my twenties and Jobcentres are one of my biggest triggers, they terrify me. The thought of having to go to one every week is something I cant cope with

I dont know really its a very messy situation as I have applied for PIP and Limited Capability but am waiting to hear back. The trouble is i want to work, desperately, but dont know if Im well enough, it varies from day to day. some days I can and some days I cant. A very difficult thing to explain to a jobcentre

Thank you guys, this forum is a constant source of strength to me. Some days I dont know how Id get through if I didnt go on here

My boy is doing a bit better, he has had oxygen and steroids and is drinking again and asking for food. Still in the hospital though

Bless you. Can you get some advocacy with the job centre? Your wife and kids need you more at the moment. 

Hang in there, Dude!

The Demons in our head lie to us.

The system failed us, but we shouldn't fail ourselves. 

I know from experience that this is how life can be, i've experienced similar things where one child is in hospital then the other goes in at same time. It's understandably very distressing, but, you will get through this. Stay strong. good luck, we're always here if you need to unload. 

Hi Billy, please call 111 or the samaritans 116 123.

It sounds like you have had a tough time. And with autism this can be hard to cope with. But you are important, not just to your family, but because you, yourself matter.

Ask for a Disability employment adviser at the jobcentre if you feel you are not being understood or you are struggling with your asd, they support your workcoach to help people with disabilities and can help, they have time to listen and look into solutions or organisations that can help x they have helped me so much.

Billy87 said:

I honestly dont know how much more I can take

More than you can imagine mate.  Hang in there.

You're in a season of high jinks and high emotion.  You will cycle back around to serenity soon enough.  In the meanwhile - don't forget to breath and you know you can always reach out here.  We've got your back.