So I havn't been on here in a while, have been having a bit of a tough time.
Basically for the last year I have been struggling with burnout really badly. I have been having lots of severe meltdowns and several breakdowns mainly due to the pressure of work and social situations. I have alternated between going to work and being signed off sick by the doctor. I feel that I am stuck in a bit of a vicious circle though and could really appreciate some help in breaking it.
If I go to work the pressure of having to mix with people and talk and socialise with them all day plus the pressure of being expected to concentrate and do a job by bosses is simply way too much for me. I melt down constantly, sometimes I lie on the floor at home in the evening and have to be lifted up to go to bed. I become impossible to live with due to my constant meltdowns ( I dont know how my wife copes with it) I feel the urge to self harm and I lock myself in toilets to hide from people and have regular nervous breakdwons.
However, if I am off work I struggle with being home a lot and not having the routine of going to work to take my mind off all the anxieties in my brain. I tend to overthink and go into my head and become quite depressed and struggle badly with anxieties and imagining things about people and myself.
This then leads to me thinking I need to go back to work to occupy my brain and the whole cycle starts again
Any ideas on how to break this cycle and how to keep my brain occupied and in good health without the pressure of going to work?
Thank you