Published on 12, July, 2020
It sounds bizarre even to me, but I couldn't tell what is my special interest, it bugged me all the time.
It was like in a polish poem for kids about Mister Hilary looking for his glasses, while he had them on his nose all along.
After I watched Autistamtic's video about special interests, I decided there is only one possibility - Thinking.
I do have many interests, some of them time and money consuming, but there is only one that persisted through my whole life - Thinking.
It is my safe place where I escape when in need. I do not need to be told to do it, and nobody can break in.
I'm doing it for hours sometimes without noticing how long I am doing tt. If it wasn't for alarms I set, I would often miss moment when I'm supposed to get up and go to work, I'm so engrossed in it.
I can think about anything and everything, because it stimulates my special interest. The more wierd, unexplainable, uncommon, the better, it will make think longer.
It would explain why I do not stick to one branch of knowledge, I read and absorb all, whatever I currently need to thinik about.
When I meet my friends I can talk about what I was thinking about lately with so much excitment and at increased speed, that I can tell they do not know how to interject. But I want their opinions too so I stop sometimes.
I come up with many radical, abstract conclusions often, to things nobody bothered to think about, but for me existing explanation was lacking, so I had to do it.
Does it make any sense to you?
Have you heard about special interest that does not exist in a real word?
Is it possible?
I was recently told that I need to stop thinking so deeply about things. The best of it was that the person who said it is also Autistic.
Apparently, talking to me was a bit like talking to Sherlock Holmes, even though they had a tendency to remember and 'forensically' examine conversations.
Haha I love that. You need to get a pipe and magnifying glass now
I do own those already