Partner is suffering depression and autism and it's becoming alot

I feel clueless

I apologize now for how long winded this is and some of it might not seem like it belongs in this forum but i could really use the help and understanding. 

I have been with my partner for over 8 years now and I have always known that he struggled a little with anxiety and depression and even though he is on medication recently things have gone in a downward spiral.

A month or so back he got really bad, intrusive negative thoughts about himself and what others thought of him, being very withdrawn both physically and verbally, thoughts of death and possibly acting on it. I am usually well versed in how to help him with his depression and such but this was new for me, I have never seen him like that. I was so worried and panicked that my own mental health began to suffer a little. He wouldn't talk to anyone or seek help, he would t talk to his parents and let them know he was struggling and he told me not to tell anyone as well but I explained that we needed help that I couldn't do this on my own. 

He eventually agreed to see our local mental health crisis team and they saw him every day for a almost 3 weeks, he was out on some medication to help him sleep but also something he could take when ever he felt high anxiety which he could take ontop of his usually anti depressants. He also got to see there on call phycologist, who was very nice and strongly believes that along with depression and anxiety that he has high functioning autism as well.

Which now that I think back and reflect on some of our history does make science. We are currently waiting for his GP to officially assess him for autism and a diagnosis but we have been waiting for nearly 4 weeks now. 

This is new ground for him and for me and I'm currently at a loss of what I can do to help. I have done my own reading and research and applied some of this to the way I handle things and talk with him ect and some of it does help a little bit there are days where it's almost like his back to the very bottom. 

I feel clueless and helpless.

He does have a phone call with a new therapist/counsellor next week who deals with talking therapy and also CBT and the likes. I'm hoping he will be ok till that call and that this call will help us get onto the right track.

I just don't know what to do anymore.

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  • be gentle, give him space, and don't push about things, let him slow down, doing less socialising with others is good idea

    I reckon he suffers from burnout caused by extensive prolonged masking, and possibly a traumatic event before it started, it takes long time to fully recover

    meds probably don't do him well, all I tried were making me like a zombie unable to function, or had no effect at smaller doses, and it's drugs, so kidneys are working double time, make sure he has always something to drink at arms reach

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  • be gentle, give him space, and don't push about things, let him slow down, doing less socialising with others is good idea

    I reckon he suffers from burnout caused by extensive prolonged masking, and possibly a traumatic event before it started, it takes long time to fully recover

    meds probably don't do him well, all I tried were making me like a zombie unable to function, or had no effect at smaller doses, and it's drugs, so kidneys are working double time, make sure he has always something to drink at arms reach

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    Thank you for all your words and support. It really does mean alot that my self and my partner are not alone in these struggles.

    Ideally I would rather no medication and all be it a small consideration he is on the lowest dose of his antidepressants and his meds for sleeping & anxiety spells are to be taken only when he feels like he really needs to (which touch wood he often tries to avoid taking them).

    I try my best to not be too pushy or demanding of him and honestly I cannot fault him in his duty's as a husband. He still helps around the house ect. I give him as much space as he needs but I always let him know I am there, even if he wishes not to talk I am there to just sit with him in silence if he wants/needs.

    I do believe that going back to work after being signed off sick and then a bit of an overload of social activities over the weekend has triggered this current spell.

    Im keeping my fingers crossed that things do not worsen untill his appointments next week.