My routines keep shifting and its making me feel sad and exhausted.
All the school holidays and bank holidays, lovely as they are, keep altering my weekly routine. I don't mind the change so much but it always leaves me tired and trying to get back into the rhythm of our regular week again feels utterly overwhelming.
Part of it, I think, is that for all the changes of half term, it does give me a chance to not actually do as much. I don't have to take the kids to so many activities (all of which require me to socialise with other parents) and just the thought of having to face getting organised and ready to go and then having to worry about finding places to park, being on time and dealing with chit chat for the time we're there makes me want to curl up in a ball and cry. It feels so big and difficult its making me feel ill and causing me quite a lot of joint and stomach pain. I keep feeling panicked and weepy. It all feels too much to deal with and I don't know how to get round or through it.