Hello everyone,
Im 25F and was diagnosed this month after a lifetime of struggling and confusion.
My diagnosis has left me feeling mostly happy- someone has had the patience to listen, and recognises my struggles without dismissing me. It gives me more confidence because I spent so long being told "there's nothing wrong with her she's just badly behaved" it just became the default for me to think I just had a really bad attitude, but not being able to help it.
What I'm really struggling with is the anger and resentment I feel towards family and the adults I was supposed to be protected by growing up. I feel so angry that nobody cared enough to notice or raise a flag that maybe there was something up with me?
I can't stop asking myself things like "Did my parents honestly think this was normal?" or "Weren't my teachers supposed to be trained to pick up on students that seem heavily isolated and have difficulties?"
Has anyone else had to sit with feelings like this after diagnosis? I hope over time it will subside, but the more things click into place for me and start making sense, the less it makes sense that I went this long without help.
