Suspect I may be autistic

Hi.  You present classic autistic signs and behaviours, so aware of these and perhaps there are others you aren't aware of so I always recommend people who consider they might be autistic to get to know yourself, involve others if they are trustable to be constructive about things they observe and know.

There is a concept in computing/electronics of black boxes , devices that inputs go into and things come out but the insides that deal with those are unknown to the observer - the only way to know how it works is by working out what is going on based on those inputs and outputs.

People, anyone and everyone, are black box devices - you can observe peoples inputs and outputs, but you cannot see or know what is happening inside - commonly people assume others work exactly like them, or in the same kind of ways, and that causes difficulies when coming across others than are not that similar, autistic people for example. 

People can observe laziness and other things, because autistic people can be miles away and not doing anything or not doing what needs doing, or have difficult organising themselves.  Laziness is not always about not be bothered, though any human can choose to be lazy of course.  You can't make people understand you or know you better, only educated them and hope they take it on board and find out more about you.  Many non-autistic people come here confused or fed up with someone autistic, they clearly haven't got to know autism well or the person.  Many autistic people com here affected by others lack of understanding and knowledge, or worse things.

Where you go from here is onwards, but with a better sense of yourself and acceptance of yourself.

Hi.  You present classic autistic signs and behaviours, so aware of these and perhaps there are others you aren't aware of so I always recommend people who consider they might be autistic to get to know yourself, involve others if they are trustable to be constructive about things they observe and know.

There is a concept in computing/electronics of black boxes , devices that inputs go into and things come out but the insides that deal with those are unknown to the observer - the only way to know how it works is by working out what is going on based on those inputs and outputs.

People, anyone and everyone, are black box devices - you can observe peoples inputs and outputs, but you cannot see or know what is happening inside - commonly people assume others work exactly like them, or in the same kind of ways, and that causes difficulies when coming across others than are not that similar, autistic people for example. 

People can observe laziness and other things, because autistic people can be miles away and not doing anything or not doing what needs doing, or have difficult organising themselves.  Laziness is not always about not be bothered, though any human can choose to be lazy of course.  You can't make people understand you or know you better, only educated them and hope they take it on board and find out more about you.  Many non-autistic people come here confused or fed up with someone autistic, they clearly haven't got to know autism well or the person.  Many autistic people com here affected by others lack of understanding and knowledge, or worse things.

Where you go from here is onwards, but with a better sense of yourself and acceptance of yourself.