Between meltdowns and shutdowns, I tend, historically speaking, to experience meltdowns a lot more often than the latter. But today I experienced what can only be described as a shutdown and it was deeply unpleasant and just as frustrating as any of my previous meltdowns.
It was of course caused by the chaos of being around a lot of other people and not being able to make sense of the world in front of me. Just when I think I’m getting the hang of it, people seem to change and a new presentation of behaviour reveals itself in front of me that everyone else is seemingly okay with or able to adapt to and I’m the only one left scratching my head at it all. Well not so much scratching my head as much as feeling immensely lost, frustrated and cross at myself for not being able to navigate it effectively.
Anyways, apologies for the moan. Just felt like I needed to put words to the experience.
