Hello, I'm feeling low, anxious and a little fed up with my life atm. I'm 25 and it's taken me the last five or so years to work up the strength to apply for a job, which I did and somehow I even managed to get the job and then first day I just got so stressed and overwhelmed I broke down in tears and had a little meltdown. Went home and I've been crying and depressed ever since. Every day it's the same. I really hate myself, everything I do is a big failure and I'm tired of it. Last night I ended up phoning Samaritans. I'm an absolute mess. Crazy because not so long ago I was in last year of school, had so many hopes and dreams, so many amazing ideas. I really thought I'd enjoy being an adult and be able to get a grip on everything but I don't and can't. I can't even go out for a walk without struggling to breathe and with chest pains because of anxiety. I've even started vomiting which is gross. I need help and support but I don't know who specialises in autism. I don't know what to do, I just want everything to end now I'm fed up with life and being the mess I am. I wanted to come here to meet others like me and hopefully get some help and help you as well if I can