Life Struggles

Hello, I'm feeling low, anxious and a little fed up with my life atm. I'm 25 and it's taken me the last five or so years to work up the strength to apply for a job, which I did and somehow I even managed to get the job and then first day I just got so stressed and overwhelmed I broke down in tears and had a little meltdown. Went home and I've been crying and depressed ever since. Every day it's the same. I really hate myself, everything I do is a big failure and I'm tired of it. Last night I ended up phoning Samaritans. I'm an absolute mess. Crazy because not so long ago I was in last year of school, had so many hopes and dreams, so many amazing ideas. I really thought I'd enjoy being an adult and be able to get a grip on everything but I don't and can't. I can't even go out for a walk without struggling to breathe and with chest pains because of anxiety. I've even started vomiting which is gross. I need help and support but I don't know who specialises in autism. I don't know what to do, I just want everything to end now I'm fed up with life and being the mess I am. I wanted to come here to meet others like me and hopefully get some help and help you as well if I can

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  • Hi - that sounds really awful for you - I’m sorry. Try not to blame yourself - you’ve obviously been trying really hard to get your life on track - it’s not easy. Finding work - and staying in work - can be hugely difficult for many autistic people - no matter how intelligent or talented they are. There are so many aspects to the workplace that are really difficult for autistic people - you’re not at all alone in finding that really difficult. 
    anxiety is a really difficult thing to cope with (I know because I have anxiety and panic attacks and it’s really getting in the way of me achieving anything and stopping me enjoying life at the moment) - it’s really tough. Be kind to yourself - you’ve had a tough time and you should take care of yourself, and do something that helps you to feel better. What you don’t need is to blame yourself for something that’s not your fault - ie your autism, anxiety and depression. Life isn’t easy and you’re trying your best - this job didn’t work out but you will learn from your experience and the next time it might go better. Maybe this just wasn’t the right job for you? It wasn’t meant to be - but in the future I’m sure you’ll find your way. Try not to lose hope Rainbow 

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  • Hi - that sounds really awful for you - I’m sorry. Try not to blame yourself - you’ve obviously been trying really hard to get your life on track - it’s not easy. Finding work - and staying in work - can be hugely difficult for many autistic people - no matter how intelligent or talented they are. There are so many aspects to the workplace that are really difficult for autistic people - you’re not at all alone in finding that really difficult. 
    anxiety is a really difficult thing to cope with (I know because I have anxiety and panic attacks and it’s really getting in the way of me achieving anything and stopping me enjoying life at the moment) - it’s really tough. Be kind to yourself - you’ve had a tough time and you should take care of yourself, and do something that helps you to feel better. What you don’t need is to blame yourself for something that’s not your fault - ie your autism, anxiety and depression. Life isn’t easy and you’re trying your best - this job didn’t work out but you will learn from your experience and the next time it might go better. Maybe this just wasn’t the right job for you? It wasn’t meant to be - but in the future I’m sure you’ll find your way. Try not to lose hope Rainbow 

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